I’m more upbeat this week but it’s such a fragile state of mind and is entirely dependant on me making achievements. Doing well in tests, forming an exercise routine, earning compliments, anything that can show that I haven’t just wasted away another day. As soon as I stop trying to maintain a constant level of achievement, I slip back towards my baseline depressed mood. I guess it’s a bit like one of the concepts we learnt in physics a few years ago: “every action has an equal an opposite reaction” in the way that we always have to take an action for anything to change. It’s also like with a muscle, if you don’t keep exercising it, it’ll get weaker and atrophy.