some of the attraction of smoking.

The refusal to be responsible, the sort of “rebel without a cause” mystique.

I guess I understand what you’re after. It probably isn’t even that bad for your health if you only smoke every now and then.

It’s just that most people become hooked, and have to smoke a pack a day, and spend tons of money, kill their looks, and end up dying from it, or severely ill.

It’s never appealed to me. I guess I’m just not that rebellious.

I used to just sneak out into the bush at the farm I grew up on, and had campfires by myself in the middle of the night. I would just sit in the trees, howling at the coyotes.

Maybe that’s why camping is appealing to me. I am sort of rejecting civilization.

I also love a good fire in our fireplace.

I also have a life rich in self-expression. I draw, I journal, I make things. I guess expressing all of the dangerous thoughts and feelings to myself is a way of being rebellious and mysterious….few people get to see my drawings, and NO ONE sees my journals.

Have you ever tried that, instead of smoking?