I cheered this as well for the same reason, I hear your frustration, your sadness, and want you to know that there are people who care, even if they are ‘strangers’ on 43 things. Sometimes you just need to find the one little thing that can keep you going, and this goal is so helpful with that. It forces you to find that one thing in the midst of sometimes insurmountable frustration. Even if the only thing you can find is that you get up, survive, and make it back to bed. Believe me, some times that is a big enough accomplishment! (I speak from personal experience). And I echo TroegPerdo, ask for help. You’ve made a step here and you have support and people wanting to help you. If you can talk to your manager, they might be able to help you too. Hang in there, okay?

It really sounds like clinical depression. I have suffered from clinical depression in the recent past. An interrelated complex of family, work and financial issues landed on me like a ton of bricks about two years ago, leaving me exhausted, drained and emotionally devestated.
I resisted asking for help or even expressing it because I was the ” Fairy God Mother” – the person who always helped and never asked for anything in return. I finally started seeing a psychologist and it took about a year and a half but I emerged stronger and happier. I believe you can too. Some people are helped with anti depressents but it is not always required.
I am not sure where you are located but in some states in the US depression is covered as a disability and your work may be required to make adjustments to your schedule, etc based on your doctors recomendationuntil you are better. I moved on to a much better place and I am sure you can too.
Hang in there – it may not feel like it now bet it does get better and there are people who care

I’ve been wanting to congratulate you on your car! Excellent. After you have a brief retreat and well-deserved hibernation…what are some other things you’d like to accomplish? You have so many qualities that will lead you to success.

Hang in there, eat some good, tasty comfort foods that will help you feel better. Do you have trader Joe’s where you live? There is an inexpensive vitamin b12 they offer that I take for a soft energy boost and a feel-good too. Just thought maybe that might help also.

Get some rest and set some more goals. Reading about your hard work & saving for your car has been inspiring!

What’s next ?

Hey DiamondMind… first of all, I just hope you’re feeling a bit better physically after today. Hope you got a bit of rest. I know that the bigger picture is really daunting at the moment, but sometimes just getting some extra sleep and a change of routine can be the small blessing we need to renergize enough so that everything looks a bit less bleak the next day.
I think the important thing to remember is that everyone goes through patches like this; high stress, crap job, feeling low and hopeless. It is a terrible feeling, but it is also something that can be overcome.
Start out with the basics, and manageable things: make sure you are eating OK and regularly (even if you don’t feel hungry try to get something inside), try to sleep at a regular time. You are right that scheduling is so important, and it sucks that it is one of the things your job makes difficult. Could you speak to them about giving you more regular hours? Or could you tell them you don’t mind coming in but that you can only work a certain amount per week, and choose the number of hours? If they go for that then you can at least start to have some time for yourself, and eventually start the new job hunting process when you feel up to it.

Anyway, just know there are loads of people on here that are rooting for you! Feel better!

It’s okay to get overwhelmed. It’s okay to take a break. You’ve already gotten some great advice and it’s okay to take care of yourself. Please don’t hide away and don’t quit. You’re worth far more than that. If you don’t believe it, just let those of us here know you need some support and we’ll believe it while you rest.

hugs
Im thinking of you.
I do worry about you too.
I want you to know that you are NOT alone.
It may seem like it at times, but the people who took the time to comment on this post are some of the people who care about you.
Good for you for saying “no”. I’m proud of you! Its okay to say no to others and yes to yourself. Each time you say no to work so you can say yes to yourself it will help you move toward a happier more balanced life.
Please find someone you can talk to in person about this. I agree, a doctor would be a good start. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. There is hope.

I was wondering how you’re doing since you haven’t posted in a while and I just read this… Hope you’re all right ! I feel very much this way too. Big hug, please give us news !

jin