I hate sitting at work during lunchtime so I thought i’d go to church to sit outside there for 30 mins each day.

Day 1 (today): nice church but I wans’t feleing connected today. I ahvea silly crush too so I seem to want to ‘go into my head’ to feel those ‘good’ feelings rather than just sit there. Right now sitting and being present feels like death or the end of the world. Not as good as i’d hoped.