my 3 day weekend has consisted of 2 days of mostly lying in bed, tears and thoughts constantly running through my head. and 2 days of destroying myself from the inside out by overeating. i see the damage its doing, but keep doing it. i’m addicted. i want to be happy again. i thought i would be married by now, we didn’t work out. its sad we don’t even talk anymore. even my second choice doesn’t talk to me anymore. how can you go from professing love to becoming a stranger?? i don’t get it. i’m sick of being hurt. i’m going to forget about men for a while. someone flirted with me at the store and i haven’t been back there in weeks, afraid to run into him. i deep down want to be left alone. the thought of being left alone makes me kind of happy. i looked up homeopathic therapies online for depression and will get some pulsatilla and see how that works. i saw myself a lot in those symptoms. a moment ago, i took a caffeine pill to get myself up a bit and it is making me feel a little better. i have 1 more day to get it right.