a lot of us feel this way. I know I do quite often.

There really isn’t a fresh start. I don’t think walking away from society is the answer (I have a post under “escape society” too).

The search for meaning is really hard. Sometimes we only get a moment here, and a moment there that makes us feel like our lives mean something.

The key is to recognize those moments, and try to understand why they were important, and see if we can make more moments like that.

Maybe it would help to write down all of the things that you think would make like more meaningful, what things that would make a job more meaningful. If there are people out there that you think are leading meaningful lives, write down WHY you think their lives are meaningful, and apply it to yourself.

The job thing always bothers me too. We work at things we don’t care about, because we have to for money. You could start moving in a direction that would take you to a more meaningful job. More money, or being busy, isn’t the same as meaningful.

For myself, I look at animals, plants, trees, and think “they don’t have to do anything special to justify their existence, they seem to understand that just existing is enough”. That’s my starting point. I have every right to exist, as much as anything else. I don’t have to justify myself.

From there, I try to look at what I love. Animals, art, creating, gardening, reading. Then, I make a point of investing time and money to those things. I make room in my home for my animals, I have space for my crafts, and so on.

I try to give something back to other people.

The big thing, is that you are perfect right now. If you want to do something else, give it a shot, but it isn’t necessary to do things to justify your presence. I don’t know that there really is a specific “meaning” to life, just that we have the free will to do whatever we want with it. Meaning is an individual journey.