...i fell into an oh-so-common trap that most people do when they suddenly start seeing much more of their beloved (whether they are living together or not), and that is:
too much focus on ‘them’ or ‘us’ to the point where i forget ‘me’!!
one thing i’ve been doing this past week or two is seriously stepping back, trying to ‘love without caring’ – and it’s working out. i have been less emotional/analytical, he has felt less pressured about everything. i’m just leaving him alone, being supportive, but also taking time out for myself. it keeps things simple, which is very important. i’m learning that i dont’ need to – i mean, i don’t actually WANT to – analyze every little thing. i have to leave him/us alone.
the other thing is that i’ve been trying to reflect on what – not ‘who’ – i love. not ‘what’ as in possesesions or pets, but things that i like to do, times when i feel most at peace, when it’s important to take alone time.
for me, it is my Saturday morning alone time. i had a lovely ‘at home’ date with my love last night, and awoke feeling refreshed and productive today. now, these few hours in my living room in the morning light is the most peaceful. i am happy. and i’m going to run errands on my own too – just take this day off for ME.
grateful that i have the freedom to do this because some chores/groceries were done yesterday by my lovely man. thank you.