I mainly need this for my studies and for any possibility of me having a social life. Despite plenty of academic oppurtunities, the possibility of enjoying the company of others, rewards such as holidays and numerous attempts to gauge my mind into revealing what I really want, I have pretty much nothing in the way of motivation. I’ve recently started trying to meditate in the mornings to clear my mind so it’s easier to think, I’m going to go to the universities I may be studying at in the hope it’ll motivate me to study and I’ve been talking to old freinds in the hope that one of them will respond. So far, my mind’s as clouded as ever and I’ve been shot down more times in the space of a month than I have in the rest of the past year. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do to drive myself on.