i went back to work after being off for a week. and as soon as i walked trhough the door, 2 of the chefs welcomed me back, and were flirty and paid me some compliments and happy to have me back. i was on the verge of tears with happiness that they paid me some compliments because of the break up of my relationship, and he made me feel like crap, it just really made me feel better, tho i dont really handle compliments well in general. esp now this thing with my ex, he kinda wrecked my self esteem a bit. just made me feel like, well some people do find me attractive afterall. it was kinda like i needed to have somebody pay me a compliment so i could feel better about myself.

and then later in the day, my boss randomly asked how much did i lose? i said lose what ? weight he said. i said quite alot. he said “i can tell its very noticeable”.... and then he wanted to know specifically how much etc. this is the second time hes brought up my weight loss randomly, telling me im looking good and lean. one of my other colleagues at work a couple of weeks ago also said she noticed ive lost a lot. anyway, these compliments today made me feel a bit better. but when the boys complimented me as soon as i started work and were happy to see me, it almost choked me, cos i got used to lack of afection, compliments or romance from my ex lately. he pretty much decided i wasnt good enough for him and began to treat me like shit. so it was a weird moment. i was litterally on the verge of tears… i kinda smiled shyly and quietly said thanks and then wanted to get away… cos i knew i might burst into tears over it. but yeah that was nice of them. it helped.