..But I am an adult now. I will try to make peace with their crapness and make a new start. I am not my parents.
Not a day goes by where I don’t remember their hurtful criticism (they still do it), my dad’s temper, my childhood that I lived in fear, my dad hitting me, my mother’s jealousy and insults. Now they want to be close to me? It’s a joke.
I can’t really afford to spend more on therapy at the moment so I will try to self-help myself and read inspiring books like Louise Hay. I looked up how to stop your past from ruining the present and some articles, like from Mind Charity, do help. Especially when I read just live day to day, do not expect too much of yourself.