everything.

I’m a paranoid wreck and I’ve known this since it started (which I can’t remember when, but I do know it’s been since at least middle school. Does that even matter? Probably not). It results in me constantly wondering about every possible bad thing that could happen in the situation and then wondering, “What will I do if that DOES happen? Really, what CAN I do?” And then I know I can’t do a damn thing about ANY of it, which makes me worry and afraid even more.

I thankfully don’t get out of hand with this (at least, I don’t think I do), but I should probably get help with it… Dope myself up on relaxants or God knows what else I could maybe do.