I tried this last year, and it didn’t work out so well. I enrolled in the adult high-school and lasted a month before my anxiety shot through the roof and I couldn’t handle the pressures anymore.
Two years before that, I tried enrolling in some online courses. That didn’t work out well either.
This time, I’m ready. I feel more ready than I have ever been. I’ve worked incredibly hard on myself in the past 2 years… I’ve created a stronger foundation in myself, and this time I feel confident. I know I can do this. I’m in such a different place mentally now than where I was before. I feel determined this time. I’ve also finally figured out what I want to do after high-school. I’m excited for university. I can’t wait to get on with my life and make things happen.
I enrolled back into the adult high-school on Jan 16, 2012. I’m doing pretty well in school. I received at least an 85% in my first five lessons, so I got to skip ahead and write my mid-term, which I just did last Thursday. I’m happy. Things feel like they’re right, this time. Like as if it’s the right place and the right time.
I don’t doubt myself anymore. I know it and can feel that it’s so close and so possible. It’s not a scary, near-impossible thing anymore. It’s very real, and I’m doing it. I’m getting it done, and it’s so awesome. It’s a lot of hard work, and it’s really, REALLY boring at times. But I want this so bad, I don’t care anymore.
Soon, I’ll be a graduate. And I’ll never have to think about high-school, ever again.