more than two months in, and i extended from 20 mins a day to 30 mins a day a few weeks ago. i have tried to be true to my resolve, and i have missed only one day.
some meditations have been good, where i felt that my mind was still and tranquil; most are still punctuated by long bouts of daydreaming or blankouts in awareness. however, i think the very fact of sticking to meditation, even through periods of boredom and wishing to get up and do something else, has been very helpful. i think i am more productive as a result, more focused and decidedly less anxious. it is a little like having found untapped reserves of willpower, but not quite: it’s more like unpleasant tasks have become less unpleasant and i can do them with less effort, less avoidance, less dislike
i’ll keep at it – hope you all do too