I haven’t posted an entry on this goal in a while & thought I should. Lately I’ve been feeling really depressed about health & lifestyle issues. No one seems to know what exactly is wrong with me. The other day I was told that it is most likely fibromyalgia because my muscles just have this deep ache all over. It’s my biggest complaint. I’m always tired. I don’t sleep well, that could be why I’m always tired though. I’m so stiff in the morning after waking up I can barely move. I have daily headaches/migraines. There’s really so much more & I really think some of these symptoms can be from depression & not just fibromyalgia if that’s what this is. All the pain I’ve been experiencing has really made my exercise levels go down drastically. I don’t feel like myself when I don’t exercise. I am one of those people that is active & loves to be out & about. So I’ve just fallen into this deep depression again. I have other reasons as to why I’m depressed. I won’t get into that now but I’ve been depressed for many years. Some days are tolerable while others are miserable. Lately I just feel it’s been getting much worse dealing with daily chronic pain. The negative thoughts about how all this will turn out have not been helping either. I try positive thinking & sometimes it’s helpful. Others I feel like its a let down when I feel worse despite the positive thinking. The thought of being on medication the rest of my life is not helping either. I definitely need to schedule an appointment to talk to somebody again. I know it could help a lot, I just have not felt comfortable talking to the therapists that I have so far. I don’t feel like I connect with them or it just seems awkward & makes me dread even going. I will keep thinking positive though & hope for the best.. & I definitely will try talking to a therapist again. Sorry for the rant – life’s just been really stressful lately.