Part of forgiving myself was to come clean about the issue/s at stake. I took the first step 2 or 3 days ago by writing my letter. That was hard. I had to admit to myself what I had done and just how that has effected my life today. Negative. I felt slightly better just by actually admitting all of this to myself.

Last night I took the next step, the only option, which was sitting down face to face and reading my letter to the person I had wronged.That was by far one of the hardest things I have ever done. It was hard to get the words out, but once I did they just flowed like a waterfall. Well, maybe they came out like a leaky faucet I couldn’t shut off, either way..I got it out.

As soon as I let the words out I felt a tremendous burden just leave my body. I physically felt better and less weight in my chest.It had been a long time coming, almost 4 years to be exact. 4 years too long to carry this.

I don’t think my journey towards forgiveness is done quite yet though.

It will take time.

I feel much more at ease though, with myself and the situation.