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day CrunchyBread wrote an entry that was very personal. Her entry has been on my mind all week, it was for the strength and courage that she found to write at a moment when she didn’t feel she had the strength to do so. In that I was reminded that I too have that inner strength, that when in the middle of what you think is despair, there is this inner strength that will carry you when you are unable to carry on. I found this profoundly inspiring, to me that kind of inspiration that reaches down to the depths of your toes.
It is within the courage that Crunchy has shown that I feel the need to write this and put it out there into the universe.
For you folks that follow me, know that lately I have been talking more about my ex. Here is the background- Three years ago I met a man, who I thought became the love of my life. I did not know that he was a con artist/sociopath until the end of December of last year. In the beginning of our relationship, I fell hook, line and sinker for him. Then things started not to add up, stories were told that ended up being lies and in the end, this guy was up to no good. He has lied and stolen from not only me, my son but others too. His path is wide as it is long. I started the drive to have him pay for some of the wrongdoings he committed. He has been incarcerated since the beginning of this year.
I have been wonderfully blessed with family, friends IRL and friends here at 43T that have been here for me. I refuse to let this chapter define who I am. I will no longer stay quiet when I know my voice should be heard.
In this last half of this chapter, I must face him again in court. This is where I pull that strength that I talked about above. I must call on this strength to be able to do the things I need to do. I must say the things I need to say, in hopes that the future victims will have something or at least that is what I am hoping.
There are many times in our lives where someone will say or does something to touch your heart. Most of the time that person will never know they did. Crunchy, you have done that for me. You are such a beautiful person. Thank you does not seem to be enough.