I added both “improve my self esteem” and “be more confident” because I feel like I relate self-esteem more with my physical image and confidence more with my personality. However, I feel that these are definitely linked. Me not feeling good about my appearance makes me feel worse about who I am, and vice versa. While it does have to do with what other people think about me, it’s mostly about what I think about me because no matter how much approval I get from others, it never helps.
I want to be less emotional. I want to accept what I’m studying as good enough, because I never have even though I get good grades. Maybe that’s because my brother is in the sciences and everyone I talk to sees the sciences as so much more worthwhile. I want to feel like I’m special and important to the people I care about. I want to feel like a good writer, and like I have talents and skills that people appreciate. I want to feel like there’s something good for me in my future, career-wise and in my personal life. I feel none of those things at the moment.
I’m not sure how to change this about myself yet, which I guess is part of why I am on this site. My goal is to increase my confidence before I move out again in the fall (I temporarily living at my mom’s house – don’t worry I’m only 20 :P).