The feeling is just getting worse. I feel I am experiencing no progress. I am probably hard on myself. I saw this amazing performance by a young rapper who produced a really outstanding track – full of such energy -(actually, he kind of copied someone else’s track which is a sample of a classical piece) but still… I just compared myself to him and to what he is doing. It’s been years and I haven’t done anything worthwhile or listened to my music and thought ‘i’m really proud of that and it says everything I want to say’. I just feel so frustrated. I don’t know where I am going wrong. Every melody I make sounds like something else. I actually want to go home and smash everything up – my entire set-up. I’ve really had enough. I can’t be int he same place in 10 years’ time. Sometimes I wish there was a God who could come down and say ‘you know your frustrations with X? It’s because you’re missing F,Q and V. Follow these guides I have written out for you and all will fall into place. Glad to be of service.’ Where’s THAT God?