^{LBC sucks, he mad me cry. Asshole}

I’m not really GIVING UP, but I’m stopping. I threw away my spell. I’m not thinking of my wings daily. I’m just done. Why, some people ask? I’ve have had a life-changing and a learning experience! Most of you won’t believe in what I believe, but I feel more at peace. I learned about ‘Home’, and our Creator. Our souls. Our lives. How everything that has happened to us, we chose to live it that way. I would, and can, go on forever about what I’m talking about. And, NO, this IS NOT a religion.
On Saturday, May 5, 2012, I had an incredible moment. I talked to my Grandfather. Who passed away when I was in 2nd grade. After all the crying, and “I love you” s, I thought to myself, “No more.”
“No more cutting, and no more hoping for something that will never be in use to me.”
Ok? Everyone has their mid-life crisis, or whatever, and I had mine a tad earlier.

I Repeat: I AMNOTGIVING UP!! I’m just stopping the endless hope and wishing, and all of that crap. If I grow wings, then it will happen. BUT… If I don’t as a human… I can when I come ‘Home’.

Until then, I will create a purpose for my life, and be someone successful.

UPDATE: Weeks later.

Ok so, my Internet isn’t/wasn’t working, and I am most likely using my mom’s laptop because it actually has internet! But anyway, just so everyone knows, I still have strange feelings in my back and etc. But I’m considering ideas that believing in “Home” and growing wings can combine and work with each other. If you want more info on that, message me. But I’m not not sleeping on my back, or saying my spell every day. It’s just something that would be cool to happen, but it’s ok if it doesn’t.

Interesting wing/shoulder news:

I found that I can move my shoulder in many ways I couldn’t before. More flexible. And I can move my shoulder blades higher, without literally ‘shrugging my shoulders’. I can my back muscles if I concentrate. So I still have hope, just a new belief.

_{Oh and BTW, I still have my spell saved on my computer… if I grow wings…. I’ll give it to you guys.}