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I want to update this list to reflect on some of the things I’ve come to realize over the past few months. I’ve nurtured some of my friendships amazingly well, let some toxic ones go, and seen some really big changes in my social circles and how I spend my time. I’ve been able to really get to know some old friends better, and I’ve spent a lot of time doing things other than drinking. I’m enjoying my time with my friends much more. It’s been good. Scary, at times, but really good.
(Don’t ask why I gave up on punctuation midway through this post. I couldn’t tell you.)
So—best friend ever.
Mr. & Mrs. SB
Mr & Mrs JN—he is amazing and i love spending time with her and the little one. we went to the farmer’s market the other day and it was so much more fun than a night at the bar. yes. i said that. i am getting old.
Mr & Almost-Mrs. KW—she and i have gotten so much closer after i decided that i should invest more of myself into our friendship, and i haven’t regretted a minute of it. she’s lovely, and she’s an incredible person.
BWun—loyal, no BS, always supported me
JCal—always stood by me
CRob—close since childhood
Sister #2—good person
Should Put more effort in/could possibly be good friends
JDif—likes to party too much, but good friend
GSte—i should try harder. she is special and she really likes me.
KFel—want to be friends. getting there.
CEva—i think we will be friends for a long time, but it’s still early and we don’t know each other well enough yet.
Mrog—a lot older & more conservative than me, but a great work friend.
JBrun—getting there. i am growing very fond of her and her husband.
Dr. JN—i go back and forth on my relationship with her. i should be a better friend. she has always been nice, loyal, understanding. i lose my patience with her too quickly. i think the problem is that she is a great friend when things are bad, but when things are good she is still a little too negative and very uptight. her moods affect me.
EKir—awkward after last time she visited when i got too drunk and gave way TMI about my life. i have to accept how i behaved and hope we can rebuild our friendship over time.
SNak—we will never be super BFF, but she is still a good person and a good friend.
D—he’s dating CU, after all. and i question his motives when it comes to our friendship. there’s no denying that he has been really, really good to me, though. he saved my life. if she were gone, i think we’d be okay. as it stands, though, i loathe her to the point where it affects my friendship with him, and that sucks.
Not as close as we act
AChi—lousy human, fun to hang out with. i have had enough of those people.
Taik—nice. busy. distant.
Sister #1—negative human with no empathy for others.
Not worth my time!
JJ—i honestly do not miss him anymore. thank god. he is the worst person i know. there is no one on earth i dislike less.
N—the fact that she gave up on me without asking what is up with my life is indicative of the lack of attention she has always paid to our friendship.
BSto—our frienship was always one of convenience. he was a fun neighbor.
CU—i almost dislike her as much as JJ. she is evil, self-centered, awful. i mistook her for a friend and confided in her. that is one of my biggest regrets. she will be gone soon. i can’t wait until she moves.