It’s almost been a month since my outburst of emotions concerning “him”. (http://www.43things.com/entries/view/5575055)
And it’s still that magical. He inspires me all the time. The best thing is we have the same view on “us”. We don’t call it “relationship”, we don’t call it “affair”, we don’t call it “frienship”. It’s so special. No definition fits to what is between us. We both want to enjoy our time to the fullest and don’t want to think about tomorrow. That’s what makes him an island in the restless and merciless world to me.
The last days were rough for me. I suffer from light depressions at the moment. Sometimes I burst out into tears and can’t do anything.
I want to flee. I want to get away. Run away.
He knows how I’m feeling and he keeps me going on.
Next weekend we’re going on a trip together. My first trip ever with somebody more than “friends”. We’re going to spend the time I need to recover in an apartment in a city 4 hours away from our hometown. I know that it will help me so much.
I want to thank him so much for being him and letting me be who I am. I feel so close to him. Mentally and physically. I’m having the time of my life.