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Beat my depression (read all 370 entries…)
I don't know what to do with myself.

I have never, ever, ever been this happy before. Ever, in my whole life. I can’t remember a time I felt like this.

I feel on top of the whole world. I’m managing each day and am committed to managing my medication treatment to curb my anxiety and any sudden depressive thoughts.

I wake up and pretty much spring out of bed. I love going into my own bathroom to shower and brush my teeth. I love going to my own refrigerator to make my lunch. I love locking the door behind me to my apartment. I love taking the train to my job and sipping coffee at my cubicle. I love that this life I for so long only dreamed of is actually a reality.

At the end of the day I love taking the train home and stepping off and seeing my apartment building (literally just steps from the train station). I love listening and watching the trains go by from my living room window.

I love going to the grocery store and picking out the foods I want to cook and eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I love filling the fridge with food I went out and selected and purchased all by myself.

I love coming home to a home free of nagging. Free from my mother. I love walking around knowing everything in this place is for me and me alone. I love having privacy to do what I want. I love finally being able to invite friends over, (even though I haven’t done that as much as I had envisioned because I’m so tired after work).

I LOVE THAT MY MOTHER ISN’T HERE.

I smile so much. I’m enjoying this greatly. I don’t ever ever ever want to have to go back to the life I had before. It’s so important that I continue to manage my health and keep my depression under control so it does not control me.

Please let things keep going in this direction.



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cogs10 follow love

i love that you love it.

Shaherezad Who knew off track was right where I wanted to be?

This post is fantastic!

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living the life YOU envision

I always knew that if you could just get away you’d find life was so much sweeter than ever before! I felt the exact same way when I finally got away from my parents’ house. I’m so happy for you!

It’s not that you’ll never have problems again. But it really is true that when your life sucks totally and you want to die, it isn’t always because you have a mental problem. Sometimes it is because your life really is that awful and you need to change it. Once you change it, you often find that you totally have the strength to live through any challenge since you already know you lived through THAT one.

One of my favorite strengths in life is knowing that despite what my parents said to me or about me, it isn’t ME that’s crazy. It’s THEM that’s horrible/crazy/unwilling to face reality. Realizing and accepting that has given me a lot of comfort, once I got over the grief.

I hope you remember this feeling of happiness and freedom, and celebrate it often. As thrilling as it was for me 20 years ago when I first felt it, I still feel it today. Life just keeps getting sweeter the closer you are able to shape it towards your own vision. I hope you are able to forever rekindle that sense of thankfulness and joy, and never let your freedom be something you take for granted.

((((hugs!))))

Draco filed his taxes

So Happy

I am seriously so happy with my life right now, it’s unbelievable. I love being independent. I feel so good about myself, and I want to continue to see where this road will take me.

zeroid trying my best

You deserve to be happy.


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