nice evening, went out with J, an old crush and friend. I’ve stayed away from him for a while because too much hurt, but he asked me around Easter time to go this church service with him and then go out to eat.
I took it lightly, as before my pattern was to just fall hard for him every time only to be disappointed.

Well , we had a fabulous time. The church is about an hour a way. the service was very meaningful. We both have friends that are in the congregation, so we had a marvelous time talkign to every one. He did not want to stay for the potluck, which I thought was odd. We went to dinner instead at this nice restaurant on the water talked and laughed alot lot. Had fun.

We split the bill, which was a little unusual. J. always paid for me before, but the dinner bill did come out kind of high.

Anyway, as I look back on the evening. i start wondering if I shut him out too soon.  We both are not doing anything the rest of the weekend. I didn't get that it was the perfect opportunity to suggest something. Also, he said at the end of the evening we should do more things together soon. I immediately suggested going agin to the service and that limited the suggestions.

I am learly about this, He’s a great guy, but I always fall for him and I wind up hurt, still I want to call him.
K