for this to work i need to not obsess over it. which is hard if it is a goal. i also created a goal…

“stay true to myself even if i get in a relationship”

which will help.

part of this is not listening to my mom.

mostly how i meet guys is through salsa and a lot of them are latino. my mom is pretty racist about latinos and how am i going to meet someone if most of the guys i meet are latino and every time i talk to her she is making some racist comment?

so basically i am not going to listen to what she says. if i do end up falling in love with a latino guy she will come around. she isn’t terrible… it’s more of a subtle thing.

according to wikihow, to have a healthy relationship you need to:

1) be happy in and of yourself (which i think i am, most of the time)
2) make and keep clear agreements… (this isn’t something i can do on my own but hopefully with a partner…)

well there’s a huge list

here’s the link

http://www.wikihow.com/Have-a-Healthy-Relationship

anyways…

i have been focusing on trying to be happier… and healthier… because i have read in studies that when you are in a relationship you end up only being as happy in the marriage as you were when you started the relationship (after the initial buzz wears off)

but of course i want a relationship… it’s a normal human thing.

i really like this guy giovanni who sometimes comes to salsa rueda…. i don’t know why but i guess i’ve imprinted onto him. i have always had a thing for italian guys. he’s not really italian he’s latino but he has this great italian name, he must be part italian.

anyways… i can’t make him like me and he hasn’t been at class the last 2 weeks… i really miss him.

i hope he comes back soon. i wish i had his number so i could call him.