Absnasm is mostly elsewhere.
To be honest, I’m not sure I’m ready – I would be if the nature of my job was different – but I feel I should get back on the wagon. I might have to live with these feelings long term so I need to learn how to manage them in normal life. I’m still a bit weepy most days and I’m anxious about how that will translate to my working environment. But the isolation of being home alone all day is getting to me quite a lot now. And of course, I can’t afford to stay on sick pay. I’m poor enough even when I’m working.
I’ve taken a few steps to address a couple of the practical issues that are exacerbating my depression, with differing degrees of success, and I’m planning some others. But mostly I feel like I have so many things in my life that I need to fix, many of which are beyond my control, and I just don’t know where to start.
To rub salt in the wound, my cat has stopped eating altogether and seems very unhappy. He is very old and I think he might be on the way out. I don’t know how I can cope if he leaves me too.