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And the mirror walked in....

So I went to an AA meeting today. As many of you know about a year ago I got my 2nd DUI. Guess the circumstances aren’t that important, but I was so trashed I don’t remember walking to my car or driving my car, or leaving the bar. The first thing I remember is dozing off and on in my car (behind the wheel of course).

Today at AA a lady walked in….more like staggered in. She was dress nicely and her make up was done well too. She was either really tired, or drunk, or on drugs. I’m guessing maybe all 3. She sat near me and dozed in and out during the meeting. I’d seen her before, but at the end she asked me about the group, like she’d never been there before. She did know some people in the group, or they knew her it seemed, so I suspect they looked after her.

Anyway, it certainly reminded me of how I must have been/looked on the day I got the DUI….and other times I’d gone overboard with alcohol. My denial is trying to tell me ‘I was never that bad, maybe that day, but no other times’....I’m saying back ‘shut up denial that’s not true, there were countless times you were that trashed and tried to make everything look OK’.

Anyway, thought I’d share this event with everybody…..’tis the reason I got to AA….so I don’t forget how bad it can get and how hard it is to quit.



Comments:

Yes i dont want to forget that realization of how bad i was either. Because lately my AL brain is telling me i was not that bad and maybe i can …. But its a bunch of lies to myself again. 16 months on and still lying to myself sometimes. How bad is that. Thanks for helping her. The poor woman obvi knows shes messed up or she wouldnt be trying to find a meeting.

Forgot to say

Congrats again on a year. Hard work. Sooooo worth it.

im glad you wrote about that!

cos i get exactly the same thoughts.. ‘maybe ive just overanazlyed everything.. ’... ‘was i that bad’ blah blah! never forget where that last drink took you! thats what an old man said to me in aa once about a year ago. it stuck..


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