Thursday I came home from work and found that the leasing agents that had shown my house had seriously rearranged ALL of our belongings that were out and about. They moved our laptops, our shoes, our dirty laundry, the things that were on our dining room table, and a bunch of other stuff and turned our AC wayyyyy up (we set the heat really high during the day to save electricity). Suffice to say, I was PISSED and I felt really violated. I called the realty company and explained the problem and they agreed with me that it was pretty fucked up that someone would do that (they didn’t even really make the house any cleaner, just… moved stuff around). So, I ended up picking on Thursday night because I felt extremely uncomfortable in my own home. Then Friday and Saturday I picked because I was upset about not making my goal of 20/30 days in June.
Then yesterday (the 1st), I was just sort of picking lightly throughout the day, and toward the end of the day I realized it was the 1st of the month and I had a shitty beginning to a new month and I kind of went insane and picked the shit out of my face in the mirror.
So today my face itches and burns a bit and I’m not thrilled with myself. But, I am making a goal of not picking 21/31 days this month and I’m going to be pretty strict with myself.
I did 17/30 days in June, which is better than May (56% vs. 51%). It’s a small improvement, but it’s still an improvement, so that’s better than nothing.
Happy July, everybody.
