I am so confused. My dream when I was younger was to become and scientist. I have always loved, and still love learning, which is what led me to undertake my biomedical science degree with the hope that in the future I would gain my masters and PhD and make my mark in cardiovascular research. I always thought that once I graduated it would be easy to find a job, but after a year I still hadnt got a job in my sector. This is where things started getting difficult. As I had been out of science so long, I lost absolutely all confidence in my abilities and began to feel as if I were incapable of anything. So now one part of me still wants the high powered scientist job, as it was always ‘the plan’ and I know I was capable and enjoyed it last year, whereas the other is worried that im just clinging to this idea as I feel I cant change my mind as my degree would have been a complete waste.