Thank you for all of your kind comments. Reading about others’ struggles really helps. I went to my first AA meeting last night. While I wasn’t a huge fan of the group prayer at the end (born and raised Atheist), the rest of the meeting was wonderful and very inspiring. Since they knew I was a newcomer, they all shared their stories of what brought them to AA in the first place and what they remember from their first meetings. It was really great to hear that I’m truly not alone, and to know that I have support to reach out to, of people who have lived through what I’m living through now; I’ve felt so much lately that I have no one to talk to about any of this. I am definitely going back. Unfortunately, my work schedule will keep me from being able to go more than once a week or so, but the meeting was on a Friday night, and who isn’t tempted to drink on a Friday night? I feel like it will help give me the strength to make it through the weekends, and that in combination with therapy and meditation will help me to learn to be strong enough to rely on myself to get through this.