I have always known myself, been comfortable with my self. I went to Europe with my best friend and it was an amazing experience. I learned so much about myself. It was my dream for so long, but while I was there I longed to be home and be with this man that I had just met. I missed my parents and just the comfort of everything. When I got back I was so happy, I got to go back to a new budding relationship and my small town life. Then after a while about 10 months I started to feel antsy again. I am engaged to be married to the same man I came home to. We are passionately in love with each other but trust me it is not easy. He leaves for work and I hate it and he can’t understand why I hate that he leaves. But that is not the point, the point is that I don’t understand why I can’t be happy. It is in myself, my Fiance treats me so well… why I can’t I be happy. I AM ON A QUEST TO FIND INNER HAPPINESS!