I’ve reached a point where I have no one whom I call or text on a daily or even weekly basis. I’m feeling stuck on a fence of sorts: I do want to make friends, but I’m so unconfident in others. I don’t trust anyone and I keep a major distance from people. I’ve seriously built walls because I am so tired of being disappointed and hurt by others. I’m safe, but safe and completely lonely. I feel so stuck. There has to be a way forward. I really miss my military friend. As much as I hate to say it, I’ve been experiencing suicidal thoughts again, just as of today. Perhaps that’s my body telling me to take down some walls and take some steps to interact with people. I guess being hurt/ disappointed from time to time is a necessary evil?