I’ve used 43T and my personal blog to vent when I’m upset at people. I so wanted to vent about my ex regarding the cost to send the kids to school, and considering they are going to a new school, and that in the prior 5 yrs, he’s hardly contributed anything to this.

He had only given $35 towards this and school starts next Friday. I so wanted to go off on this, but God was supplying. My sister today asked if we needed any help and I responded with that I thought we should be okay this year, despite all the costs we have.

My ex said that he was sending something in and it was a large amount. I felt the inclination to say some things and be sarcastic, but I didn’t or even mutter under my breath. Every day I’ve been praying for my ex, as well as a host of other people.

I’ve just been putting it before God and asked Him to help me not to bad-mouth my ex. So, I’ve resisted, with God’s help, to not be MORE negative about him. Today he said I should get the amount on Wednesday. School starts on Friday.

But, the reality is, we probably won’t get the amount until Friday, which is when school starts. I could go and complain about this, but will resist the urge. The amount he told me is a pretty big and shocking amount, especially considering it’s him.

So, I praise God for helping keep my fingers from typing really bad stuff, my feelings towards him, and just laying it before his feet. I honestly want my ex to be a decent person, to rise up to be the dad God has called him to be. What good does it do that the kids grow up to disown their own biological dad?

Anyway, I feel at the moment due to my emotions to vent about my dad who said a bunch of things in anger that upset me. But, I’m not. I’m going to lay before my Heavenly Father (God), my earthly dad and my financial situation.

Lord, bless my ex (the kids’ dad) and my dad.