It has now been 4 weeks since Aly was born. Time really does fly and most of the first two weeks after her birth was all a bit of a blur – I was too overwhelmed and tired to think clearly and she definitely keeps me busy all day long.

Things are slightly more settled now and I finally feel like I have a bit of idea what I’m actually doing. There is still so much to learn though. I hope I don’t do too much wrong with her.

Its been a particularly trying day today. Aly was fussy all morning and I feel exhausted. It’s difficult to not feel like a failure when I often feel like I have no idea why she’s crying and fussing, and why I can’t get her to be still and happy.

The books and websites all suggest a play, feed, sleep routine for newborns, and to watch out for tired signs so she doesn’t get overtired. But she hardly lasts more than a few minutes in play time before she starts yawning. When I start to wind down her activities at those first signs, she’d then take ages to settle down and sleep, usually taking at least an hour. I started to worry.Was I misreading her tired signs when she is actually not tired? Was I not giving her enough play time to develop?

I tried to keep playing with her a little longer this morning, and boy did she make me pay. Took 2 hours for her to settle and longer to fall asleep. Experiment failed, I guess.

What next? :(