I dated the guy with more issues than National Geographic… he was HOT and fun to be with, but failed to show me the care and concern that I deserved. I was hanging into our relationship tooth and nail, but I knew that it would never last. I regret losing the good memories and a very good friend. I remember him saying “you’re the best friend I’ve ever had”... I’m still wrapped up a lot with him, but it’s getting better. I made this really great playlist of happy music that has nothing to do with him – it’s wonderful! I know that God has more for me – I was sticking around this AWFUL town just for him, keeping me from doing what I really want: grad school. He broke it off, and I’m glad now. It was almost a month ago… I learned a lot about what I want and need from a relationship, and I’m glad I get to go to grad school. It’s really hard to forget him because there’s too much crap to remind me of him. He works at a store right outside my apt. so I see his car there – it makes me CRAZY. I’m trying really hard not to be a stalker. I do wonder sometimes what he’s up to… I know I deserve better and that he was NEVER good enough for me. I can do SO much better. I want a man who will treat me like I am a valuable person. I just want to erase him from my brain – like eternal sunshine of the spotless mind… it would be great. But i don’t think we’re supposed to forget… He hurt me a lot and I know that I’m supposed to learn from that!!! I refuse to be a dumb chick and put up with anything less than I deserve or need!