jincrumb can't get a life if my heart's not in it
I feel so sad. It’s so easy to waste a year, then two, then three. I feel stuck. Sick of being so indolent. It’s killing me. I’ve slowly accepted extreme loneliness and extreme lack of ambition as a norm. How do you go back ? Especially with no one pushing you to progress. My parents don’t care. Neither do my “friends”. All the people I see on a regular basis are new people. They’ve always known me this apathetic, easy-going, with zero sense of revolt. I must do it for me. But “me” is being swallowed by whatever I am now. :(
PS : screw planet Mars.