Prepping for the breakup. The guy and I went on the train to a nearby city for a picnic. I explained to him how much I love being single and warned him that, whenever we do happen to break up, it won’t be because of anything he did – it would more likely be because I need to be unattached again. It was a long talk but he took all of it very well. It went much better than I had expected and by the train ride home I was quite happy.
It was sort of one step forward, two steps back. I didn’t pose any of it like I was planning to dump him any time soon, but I got my point across nonetheless and made it clear that it is something that will be likely to happen sometime in the future.
He’s apparently already got me a birthday gift. I can’t bring myself to dump him because I have been the one left holding an ungiven gift before and it sucks. My birthday is in four days. I don’t know when after I will pull the plug, but I’m pretty positive it will happen sometime before September. If I’m strong enough. I am strong enough, it’s just a matter of going through with it.
Thank you =)