I know she heard me this time as she finally said good bye in a way that made me feel like she heard me. (She also just picked up a dog, hard to feel good that I was replaced by a dog but if it makes her happy then I am happy for her. But it also hurts a little. I knew she was child like when I met her, we would travel to new places and she would be more interested in the squirrels in the park than the 200 year architecture behind her. I don’t think she ever really loved me, in an adult love kind of way, I think she just needed somebody (or maybe just something) to fill her space and time, this little dog will do that for her. Don’t get me wrong, I love dogs, particularly larger dogs, but I live in a small apartment and I am not allowed dogs, I like to travel and can barely afford to do that let alone kennel a dog as well. I have my reasons for not having any pets right now (I am allergic to cats) which has a lot to do with not wanting any responsibility, enjoying not having to get up and feed the kids or walk the dog, my time is my own and I am enjoying that. I can go to school and do what I want.

Would I rather have a partner to spend my life with? Of course but I want a partner who is interested in my happiness as well and not in just her/his own. This was the right decision no matter how much it hurts.