Fellow depression fighter here. I absolutely get this…in fact, in some ways I’m kinda glad you posted it…makes me feel less guilty about my recent decision….
Like you, I care passionately about ‘saving the world’ but when I’m in a bad place it makes me feel so, so much worse to get all these notifications of horrors being inflicted by people upon each other, animals, the planet; I’ve set my email filters to send all such emails to spam and I delete without reading. Not forever, but for now.
I used to work with a charity supporting homeless people; they would repeatedly tell us during end of shift ‘debriefing’ that we must acknowledge if we were suffering emotionally or mentally due to what we were dealing with, that charity begins at home and we are useless to the world if we don’t first take proper care of ourselves. It’s difficult to take this stance when there are so many suffering so much but there is truth in it.
Hope you find your balance with this; wishing you all the best.