Heading into fall, I have been doing a lot of work with letting go, being present, in knowing that everything is and will be just fine.

I’ve said before, I think my focus on money is misplaced. I have not proven to be an effective business person.

The mantra I selected for moving forward with my business is this, “Excellence, Joy and Beauty”

I aim to keep those things in the front of my mind as I go along. I will adapt them to the rest of my life too, I’d say…My business is so interwoven into everything else. I need to remember that it is my children’s education as well, that getting discouraged at lack of clients does not justify depriving my children of these experiences.

Hooping (meditation, exercise, hobby): I want to schedule times to really push physically so that I am getting the full fitness benefit. I am tired of my fat stomach and I’d love to have this be my fitness if possible.

As for meditation, I need to schedule to be alone and hoop at least once per week. I need that time to be with it and not feel on the spot. Even around S, I feel self conscious.

Hobby, I need to continue with the drills as to expand my dance and flow.

Personally, romantically, I have no fucking strategies…J is pushing his way back in and I feel uncomfortable about it obviously. He says what my pathetic little heart wants to hear and he knows it..everyone warns “he doesn’t love you!” Awesome! :( I’m hoping with the above strategies, that the other bits will fall into (a better) place.

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