I feel like I am beginning to not care, finally. It has taken years, literally, but I don’t give a shit any more. I only need to stop myself from texting him when I drink, I’m not sure why I still do that. I may have to stop drinking altogether for a time until I get this under control. I did go several months without contacting him this winter. I need to stop it for good. It would probably be best if I didn’t even answer him when he texted me. I have got to get him out of my life. He is no good for me.