lovingmex43 is focused for 2013
I attended my first AA meeting tonight. It was fucking scary just walking in the door. I was worried about meeting somebody I know. Worried more that I would be embarrassed because I would not know how things work. I was worried about having to talk to some somebody or out loud.
It was the first time that I ever spoke the words out loud, “I am an alcoholic” I am still trying to get a grip around the fact that I am. So saying it out loud made me feel like I was lying.
I don’t know how the program works. I am not sure where to even begin. I am too damn shy to walk up to somebody and ask them to be my sponsor. The group I went to was a beginners group thinking that that would help me figure it out. It didn’t. The room was filled with mostly young people. I think I would prefer an older person as a sponsor, and probably a woman. I am not sure how to go about this.
Any thoughts, help out there?