I made a pretty big move on this one this weekend. As I sit, I am here, where I want to be, with the people I want to be with. I have confessed that I love them. As hard as that is to admit, because that means I’ve put my heart out there to be stomped on again, I am happy that I did it. I do love them. Very much. And I hope that we can keep the communication open and really be open together. I hope that we can work out the issues presented and really focus on loving each other. I hope that one day, soon, I can love these people and not be afraid of the pain and heartache that I feel is sure to happen.

How do I stop being afraid after I took this step and actually said to them what they already knew? How do I put myself out there like this and not be afraid of getting destroyed again? Is that even possible? I know that these people love me, and that they would do nothing to intentionally hurt me. But I am not naive enough to think that this will last forever. As much as I want it to.

So, I guess this is still a work in progress.