Well, I have been asked about what is happening with this goal. And truthfully, it has been a very long time since I updated this goal.
Back then I was about to walk the Camino de Santiago (one of my truly life-changing experiences) and strange as that somehow seems today, I would have never thought I would be going back to Augsburg, back to my studies, and then a year and a half later to Sweden. Especially my year in Falun is something I could not live without now. I met K there and even considering that things might have gone totally different makes me more than nervous. I am just so, so happy about where I am at right now. About where WE are.
Still, despite and because of that part of my life going incredibly well, I am not marking this goal as done. Having a long-distance relationship makes planning for a future a lot … harder and more exciting and unforeseeable. I am still studying to become a teacher and I each semester I can imagine actually becoming a teacher more. I feel like that would be something I could enjoy for many years. I am also still toying with the idea of doing a PhD. Not if that would mean another three years of physical distance between me and K, though.
And that leads me to the part where I just don’t KNOW what is going to happen. Where it is going to happen. I know without a doubt that I want to be with him – wherever that may be (he is finishing his studies soon and then will be off to where he can find a job/an internship).
All I know is that it feels fine exactly like this right now. I love going to school and I love Augsburg. And I love him. And when the time is right to decide things, I am sure we will. Together. And I will decide what feels right for me. I just feel like my life is so … connected with his. So mostly, it is a matter of place (which I cannot determine or decide at the moment) and then depending on that a matter if job. I feel confident, though, that I am able to find something meaningful to do with my life anywhere.
(And in case, he and I won’t work – which is not what I am planning for – I am sure, I will manage eventually.)
So, I guess, I have kind of decided. But I like having this goal on my list – for an eventual long-term plan. Who would have thought that I would feel excited about long-term plans someday? Not the girl that wrote the last entry on this particular goal … funny, how life just happens like this.
I do enjoy very much that so many things are choices and decisions, though. And most of them all mine.
Until those larger decision have to be made, I am just trying to focus on all the little and bigger things on my list. Committing to my life. That is where I am at with this goal, I guess.