releaseitall Everytime I close my eyes, It's like a dark paradise.
I have really been letting myself go, losing myself quickly, i hardly remember who i was just two months ago, ive been going through a lot of changes, new school, new friends, new secrets. the only thing good coming from these changes is this amazing guy ive met. other than that, life has been rough. i just recently lost two of my best friends, do you know how much it actually hurts to have someone you trusted with your life just lie to you, or break your trust, it eats you up inside, makes you feel abandoned and useless. I guess this is what i get for moving to a different school, people change, distance is an issue, and we grow apart. im trying to keep my head up, and this guy is really helping me out, hes the only reason i want to wake up, the only reason i still have faith in humanity, he makes me feel beautiful and amazing, like theres no other girl out there for him. he makes me believe that i do have a purpose in life, and that is to hold his hand, embrace him, make him laugh and smile, everything he does for me.