LeonieNyree happy to have my motivation back!
well my flat mate L told me that my legs look skinnier ^^ which was a nice confidence boost
but then my other flat mate C told me i have no bum and that the only way i will ever be attractive is surgery so why am i bothering going to the gym :( so that didnt make me feel so good.
plus two course mates L2 and C2 were moaning about how the gap between their things wasnt big enough and i genuinely wanted to punch them because when two size 4-6 (UK sizes) moan about their weight to a size 10-12 (UK sizes) it just makes me feel morbidly obese :(
gonna go dr on wednesday and hopefully get some new cream to help my psoriasis sorted out as if that wasnt so noticeable it would definitely help me feel better about myself :)
went clothes shopping today and when i looked in the mirror i was just disgusted by my body, but gotta use that as motivation and need to find a way to change these thoughts otherwise no matter what size i am im never gonna be happy :/