Yes, maybe these metaphors are muddling reality. It is true that fear is within me. But it also seems true that it is not part of the real, inherently-good me; it is just the protective shield between me and the world. The real me is motivated and energized and ready to follow through, as soon as fear lets me.
Protection. It is necessary to fear sticking my hand in the fire. It is not useful or fun to have the same automatic panic reaction to an Excel file!
Laziness is a quality I fear! I don’t find it useful/protective in the long run to label myself that way. Obviously, though, I am judging myself as lazy.
So, actually, thanks to this chance to think this through, I am coming to realize that what I fear is that I am intrinsically lazy (as judged by my recent lack of productivity). Maybe it is not fear that I need to embrace or distract. Maybe I need to embrace or distract the self-judging part of myself! Then I can go act non-lazy. Possible ways this could work:
-I believe I am intrinsically not lazy (maybe by remembering small ways in which I am not lazy or past times.)
-I embrace my past laziness (?) and own the resulting failure and learn from it.
-I embrace the judgmental part of me (which is right, in a way).
-I ignore the judgmental voice just long enough to achieve a small goal that proves I can act not lazy.
Because of the rewards, I can choose to risk acting not lazy, whether or not I am.
Being and acting are different. I can fake it till I make it. I can act productive (boosting my confidence) until I eventually am.