Picked alot :( :( :(
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theladywrath is trying to "try harder"
Aw, I’m sorry to hear that. What happened today that was different than the day before when you didn’t pick?
It’s okay. We fall off, we get back up and try again.
I can´t say the exact resason.
I din´t sleep to many hours last night and went to some work to day at a hmm I don´t know what it´s called in english some kind of factory.
That was okay and all, so I don´t know. But maybe coming home, being a litlle tired. And most of all maybe how my life has been for way to long, way way to long, that I haven´t finished my education yet, wich I had planned to do, hmm a year ago! Afraid that I won´t get it done. My ecnomy, or lack of. Being 34 and single, wishing for boyfriend and most of all children Maybe being back in this apartment.
Well I can´t say one specefic reason.
Maybe it´s “just” the fact that I hadn´t picked for two days, and then I often pick again within a couple of days. The visious cycle. I was standing infront of the mirror (the mirror!:() Taking off makeup, rubbing a little but very gently at some wounds. Rubbed one whitehead but gently. And nothing to bad had happend undtil I picked one place, and then as so often before I “just” continue, thinking about stopping sooner, but didn´t/don´t, becoming more and more down while at the same time feeling like som “stuff” can come out, but really the bad mood and not being able to see my way out of my like.. whole situation is most dominant I think. Being sad about picking, picking some more. Thinking about taht I have to get up early again tomorror and go to that job, and it will be more timeconsuming with make up it will look bad. Just.. I don´t know “the usual”. :(
I´m thinking I should try and stay more away from the mirror and touch my skin as little as possible, just try and avoid more.. until I speek some more to that psychologist who says you shouldn´t avoid and try to “control” it like that. But I don´t have the skills to not pick right now enough if I do look to much and to close. Well the bad is, even if I have the mirror down, I´ll just put it up again if I have an urge, want to pick, want to check (trying to calm myself down? tryinf to get rid of the urge? Fooling myself?)
I picked for almost an hour:(
But yes, theres no choice than to go on, it´s just, to hard.. like you may know. And I know it´s not some deadly disease! It just, it takes so much from me I feel, my life. B
I´ll try and sleep more tonight,and, hmm, maybe “work on” my mood in some way, i don´t know. Most likely I´ll just be somewhat down and not really knowing what to make of it all, loosing some of my hope again. Even though it´s proably not what´s helping, most of all you/I just wanna “run away” at these times, not think to much.. :S
I´ll tkae a shower an try not to sleep to late and.. I don´t know. Promise myself to keep doing.. something.
And thanks alot for your comment.
Once I thought I was alone with this to. Even though I still feel like I am. haven´t heard of to many people in Denmark wiht this problem, though I have found some on the internet, who has the problem. But somehow I think mine is worst, but of course I don´t know.
How is it going for you?
theladywrath is trying to "try harder"
It sounds like it was a bad day all over.
New jobs are always stressful and starting a new job with little sleep makes it even more stressful.
You suggested that I try the EFT tapping,which I did try last night and managed to sleep really well for afterward.
Maybe today/tonight/tomorrow morning get yourself a deep face cleaner or moisturizer and keep it nearby and as soon as the urge to pick starts, put on the moisturizer and massage your face for a few minutes and follow it up with EFT tapping and see if maybe that helps the anxiety away.
You and I certainly have that part in common.. we start picking and then we feel bad about it, so we do it some more… then we think about all the things in life that the picking gets in the way of and then we pick some more. Then we think about everything we haven’t accomplished and we get so frustrated and overwhelmed and in a way the picking makes it better for that one second. Until you look back in the mirror and see what you’ve done to yourself again, and then the cycle starts all over again.
What small things make you feel good? Tea, a bath, a certain song?
When you first get home from work tomorrow or whenever do something that makes you happy. Then maybe take a short nap and see how you feel.
Try to do a bunch of tiny things that give small mood boosters but don’t worry about them if you can help it. Don’t make it a chore and it could help.
This is a hard journey, but it something we can do. We can do this, together. We can quit. We can do it.
I managed to not pick my skin last night when I went to bed, but I sure did it this morning when I awoke. Which is weird, I don’t do it in the morning very often.