Last night, I did a mental exercise with someone that was supposed to help deal with a phobia of mine. It was extraordinarily stressful and draining and I found myself rubbing my face violently during the exercise. Afterwards, I scratched out two of those hard, sticky-outy blackheads in the mirror. And I told myself that was okay, and I wouldn’t count it against myself because I just went through an unusual, extremely stressful situation, so I wouldn’t count it against my no-picking streak.
Buuut then I kept scratching at the hard bits on my arms and back and eventually started feeling around my face for hard bits. I felt totally manic, but I didn’t do insane amounts of damage.
I talked to my husband about it and how frustrated I was with the situation (and the picking in general) and he said I shouldn’t count yesterday as a no-picking day, but I shouldn’t reset my count either. I kind of feel like that’s cheating, BUT also I’ve found that being forgiving with myself helps me pick less.
On the bright side, the mental exercise seems to have helped a LOT with my phobia, so there’s that.