I have been having alot of trouble with this lately.

For one thing, I just constantly feel fat.
For another, all the physical activity in the world doesn’t help.

My sister and I had a heart-to-heart the other day and I found out that she came within about a centimeter of having a serious eating disorder in high school. I remember us teasing her about it and getting worried that she was too thin but I seriously had no idea it was such a big deal.

I definitely have never been close to having an eating disorder (although apparently the family thought I might once or twice lol go figure) and hearing her talk about herself really made me so sad. My sister is amazing and she has a great body, I wish she had more confidence about her attractive capacity. I love my sister just the way she is and whoever ends up with her is one hella lucky man, in my opinion. And he’ll definitely think she’s beautiful =) Anyway, it made me wonder if she looks at me the same way. If my body image struggles are something she looks at and feels sad that I feel that way. Yknow?