stop being scared
Somethings take time...

31OCT1997 I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I ended up in the wrong neighborhood, to make a long story short I was shot several times and almost beaten to death. After 16 hours on the operating table, four reconstructive surguries, and four months in a hospital. I left the hospital scared in more ways than one. I found myself afraid of everything, mainly among people. I could not go into public places nor could I have any kind of personal relationship with others. I lost my job, my friends, and almost my family just because I was always expecting the worst in every situation. One year later, I found another job with little public contact but still would not leave my home for anything other than work. Then one day something happened and I said I have had enough I was tired of losing everyone that meant something to me in my life. I put myself thru a major overhaul. Five years later with family support a whole lot of prayer and a few hundred blessings from above. With no help from medications nor therapy I was able to be human again. I remarried the mother of my children and now I work in public relations in a US Government Agency.

For many years I could not look people in the eye. I could not handle people raising thier voices nor loud noises. Seeing people large groups of people really bothered me too. I am to the point now that only loud noises and sometimes raised voices bother me. Maybe my skin has gotten thicker with age and time. Now I am happier and healthier than I was before the “accident.”

If I can do it, you can do it too… even if you have to have therapy and medication some people need a little more to get thru. But it is really worth it, there is someone out there that may be missing you.



Comments:

Irish you are amazing

I came to this website because I am trying to deal with something that happened just a week ago, to one of my employees in our parking lot at work. He went outside for a smoke break, just after dark (Las Vegas, not the safest place on earth!) and was jumped by 4 punks and 2 women. His face was slashed and he was beaten up. He had to have 266 stitches and his nose rebuilt.
He’s doing remarkably well, I’m so proud of him, and after reading this article, I’m also proud of you Irish! You’ve both seen what Hell must look like. You’ve worked through the trauma and I know he will too.
I’m having my own problems with this whole thing. I can’t stop thinking about my employee’s face after he was beaten, and I’m having nightmares when I do sleep. I’m afraid to go to work, although I am going. It’s affected me in ways I can’t seem to manage myself, so I’m thinking of seeing someone professionally. I’ve never been close to this kind of mindless violence before and hope I never am again. Although, I’m not the one who experienced the violence, it has affected me profoundly, along with some of my other employees.
I’m just trying to find a peaceful place in my mind again. Your article helps me see that things do get better.
Take care and know that anyone who reads your story will be moved. you are amazing!!
Terri

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